Something New

In January of 2016, I started something new.  I was working as a Guest Service Manager at a hotel in downtown Chicago when my manager was promoted and moved to another property.  As a an ambitious, driven young man, I approached the Hotel Director and expressed interest in my previous managers position.  Somehow, after multiple interviews, being the youngest and least qualified on the team, I got the job.  I would describe my first 6-12 months similarly to how Kurt Vonnegut would describe his writing process.  I felt like an armless, legless man with a crayon in his mouth trying to write.  I struggled, I made mistakes and had no idea what I was doing.  But I was motivated, I knew what a good manager looked like, I just couldn't BE that good manager.  Now it's May of my second year, and just now am I starting to feel like I am getting a grip on things.  This made me think, why am I not starting this same uncomfortable, awkward journey in the space that I truly want to occupy.  I know I don't want to be a hotel manager for the rest of my days, so I decided to, again, start something new. So here I am, starting a blog.  In hopes of feeling uncomfortable and awkward and one day maybe feeling like I have a grasp on what this space is, and how I can navigate it.  This blog will serve as a collection of thoughts that are currently in my head, clawing tooth and nail to get out.  So here it is, read it, or don't.  It's for me, its for anyone who wants it, but mostly its to get me from this uncomfortable, awkward beginning to a place where I finally feel like I'm starting to get it right.